quick! before your Sun goes down

K! it's been a week of total roller coaster but I think I've turned a corner.

Was on a conference call and the VP gets on and tells everyone "there's a lot of noise circulating. just put the blinders on."

That's almost impossible for me lately.
But it's kinda true, I'm taking it to mean:
(to keep sane) in the grand scheme - try to focus and  love what matters.

well...I'm going to try to focus and try not to let things bring me down. Or do something about it, instead of just being angry and scoffing. 

Not marching in the March for "Life" today. I feel I did that last weekend. That's the thing about thinking a woman has a right to live for herself.
"Want to reduce abortions? How about marching for sex education, accessible contraception and proactively planning for parenthood?"

Finished Nuts - Alice Clayton - I saw her on a panel. Super funny. The book was a little one sided, great food description! pretty good.

Dinner with the M's tonight, fam coming into town for nephews play tomorrow. Jamie has an interview Monday - fingers crossed.

Just heard this on rotation- yes!

*updated* women's march - Denton, TX - so glad I went

a lot more people then I expected. 2800ish? 

I took a short video in the 5 minutes of silence. 

In the silence a guy across the street yelled, "God made Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve." someone in the crowd responded "Adam and Steve are doing just fine over here thank you." That was the biggest confrontation I saw. 

Most surprising - how many men there were, and some even led cheers.

I wasn't much of a chanter, not gonna hear me say anything about the president either...but I got home thinking I was going to upload my pictures and tell how nice and (mostly) uplifting it was to see all the angles  representing themselves and supporting others out there. 

Alas, I came to my facebook to see a "fb friend" gal post a long post on her facebook about how she didn't support the march , those who went are brainwashed, ignorant etc. and responses to her like "Amen, Tamara. Those manly women don't speak for me. I am embarrassed that they call themselves women!"

Here ended my good feels.... 

I barely know the gal but I refrained from unfriending her. It's interesting to see how people really think. Hers wasn't the only page either...

poor Jamie, I glanced on his FB page and he has it a lot worse. He said he finds himself thinking that because I went, they're all saying those awful things to me directly and it's pissing him off and he wants to defend me.

*sigh*

And so (along the same lines) I was blown away by the turnout all over the world. I waited for my representatives to acknowledge this event. Nothing big, just a "i see you" would've sufficed.

Radio silence.....
...crickets.

well all except my state senator, he said "Bit of rain in Plano tonight"
I waited a day thinking "surely he'll say something".

I even asked for his thoughts last night.

still waiting....not holding my breath but still...nothing? really?

In the meantime finished
The Wrath and the Dawn by Renée Ahdieh - a play on 1,001 Nights (if I understand correctly?since I've not read that story), this one, not really a believable love story but not a badly told one. Gonna stop here though. Maybe wait for the library for #2?)
#7 of Wynette series - SEP - the runaway bride meets the bad/good guy. I was entertained. She had a line in there about fireworks being sad. YESSS! I feel the same way! I JUST NEVER KNEW WHY!!. LOVE LOVE LOVE how it/they get me!.

#whyimarch #whyimarchdenton #auniteddenton

runnin' round (hopefully not in circles)

So much running through my mind!

• making a sign for the march this weekend. seriously this was harder than I thought it was gonna be! To put in a few words all that I'm thinking/want to say. Especially since that thought changes every two minutes. And so I decided on a little bit of Jane Austen and a little bit of Macon Greyson in it. I don't think it's preachy or rage-filled. Just a lttle "me" sarcasm - I'm quite thrilled. If nothing else it'll feel good to not just sit and scoff (or nod) at any entertainment platform
• Vacation in a few weeks
• Need to start planning for Derby party 
• Then help my sister plan for my nephews graduation
• and other stuff I want to avoid right now so I'm not even gonna mention here. 

Books.Finished:
Ward's - Beast - yep she's figured herself out. And she can go on forever. So good!
Rise - Karina Bliss - so i think I've figured out that rock star stories are lower on my list of tropes. I liked the educated smart girl meets rock star though apparently. Finished this one.
SEP - #6 Wynette story - he's jilted and doesn't really care. I stayed up late to finish this one. I cracked up a few times.

think he thought I might start burning my bra...

The book club thing was interesting - 8ish gals? seems like they've known each other for a while. Friendly though and funny. Got a lot of book reco's. I'll go again. So fun to find people who know what I'm talking about when I talk books.

speaking of girls - I think I'm gonna go to the women's march in Denton next weekend?

when I told Jamie, he asked "why?" in a way that made me think he was a little worried that I might start man-hating and burning my bra or something.
Actually now that I think about it, he might be ok with burning my bra...heh

I'm not expecting my going will "change the world" or anything... Really - I'd say about 60% is just 'cause I want to see the process - the rest is a venting platform for a mix of frustration and a constant feeling like something(s) going wrong.

It helped too (in my case) that it's not about yelling...
looks like people come together, with signs if they want,  around noon and stand shoulder/shoulder to someone else that thinks things are going not ok in a circle around the courthouse for half an hour-ish and then leave.
That works for me. Hopefully the crowds aren't unbearable.

I just got Ward's The Beast in! soo excited.
Don't think we're doing much this weekend with it raining and all...a-ok by me!!

And so we Pistol Annies today -

the kind that's flawed

I'm meeting with a buncha girl strangers to discuss books tonight.
yep! always excited to talk with people that've "lived a thousand lives".

I was gonna wear my book boyfriends tshirt, but figured that this is a "first date" (heh!) some bookish gals are skittish and I'm (admittedly) a little much to handle in my excitement sometimes. So I'ma tone it down a little ....or try to anyway

Also I'm saving Jamie the add to his "nerd wife tales" for a later time.

watched the golden globes - Meryl Streep's perceived insult about football and mixed martial arts "not being an art" bothered Jamie last night. He thought it was elitist to say it "like how she did".

I guess I kind of get it ...and especially reading the twitter responses he wasn't the only one.

What baffles me is, that pissed people off but

• someone mocking the disabled 
• Trump U fraud settlement
• Russian hacking
• saying a woman should be punished for making choices regarding her body, 
• calling most Mexicans that come into the U.S, rapists and murderers, 
• bullying the Scottish out of their land to build a golf course...
• your president-elect being proud of not paying taxes and not showing his tax records

etc. - doesn't really get the same outrage?
Well...hmmm.

Finished
Elder Races #1 - Thea Harrison - I learned long ago that I'm not much of a "dragon story" person but this one wasn't bad. I think I'll take a look at the second one in the series.
Re-read - Wallflowers #1- Lisa Kleypas - all i remembered was the shoe part. Down on her luck girl tries to lock down titled husband but then comes Simon *sigh*. I forget how much I like Kleypas stories.
Matchmaker #1 - Candace Camp - I skipped some but there's potential here I think as it moves forward.
Catch a Falling Heiress - Laura Lee Guhrke - nope. I think this was my second time trying this one. My kindle read 3%. I just couldn't get into it. 
Magnate - Joanna Shupe - not bad just not all that great either - she reads kinda fringe for me.

Old 97's! - Tell me that you like the songs that tell the story of real love, the kind that's flawed

most accurate description of love

One of the book sites I'm following asked for opinions on the most accurate description of love -
people posted lovey-dovey/tender stuff like from "Fault in our Stars"... and Pride and Prejudice - which admittedly is great  - “I cannot fix on the hour, or the spot, or the look or the words, which laid the foundation. It is too long ago. I was in the middle before I knew that I had begun.”"

but so I of course said:
Not to negate the importance of sentimentality ('cause it's absolutely important) 
but additionally,  for me (and mine), this line just does it for me 
“She may be an evil bitch, but she is my evil bitch , and I'll have no other." Kresley Cole - Kiss of a Demon King. 
It's just so ...right...to point out that absolute love (in my opinion) is acknowledging the good and the bad about someone and still loving them for it. Plus it's freakin' funny...and that adds to it all too!

I wish that "beginning of in-love" feeling on everyone....what a great thing to have and remember. 
Can't say the same about the bad/worst parts...oy ... just awful hollow yucky-ness.

Moving on - I've loaded up my kindle for this weekend - around packing up Christmas stuff and the W's shrimp boil.

It's supposed to maybe snow tonight!!! yay

Totally in a 80/90s Country music mood lately. Tracy Lawrence and George Strait and The Judds!
Did lovers really fall in love to stay     
And stand beside each other come what may?               
Was a promise really something people kept
Not just something they would say and then forget?...

who is this person in my room

We did our usual NYE dinner and bar and home by 9.
Our open house NYD Sunday was good as usual, people started coming at 10am lasting through the night -  and yes again made for a long day. oy...
Didn't help that I've been battling a cold/allergies - I up and went to bed by 10 leaving Jamie to handle the last two holdouts - his friends since childhood.
I didn't feel bad about it either.

Then one of their girlfriends showed up and convinced Jamie to walk them into our room to wake me up out of a dead sleep cause she "wanted to meet me".

I can't see shit and she's telling me I'm so beautiful and I don't know what else she's saying bouncing around...
Needless to say Jamie and I had words after I got home from work yesterday.
Seriously...w.t.f.

Anyway, I'm trying to be optimistic about 2017...when really, in deep recesses, it feels like I'm on constant watchfulness...
I'm not really liking this "newer" me....it's like I've aged 10 years in 10 months.
Hopefully I'll grow out of it....being so serious is so stereotypical adult...and so boring. 

Again (as most always) reading is a relief.
Finished:
Alex by Sawyer Bennett - a hockey-ish story. Dad issues - he's cold and hates everyone/thing until he meets her. Sexy times, she admits her love, he breaks up with her changes his mind - didn't do much for me but I finished. eh.

Almost finished: First Star I See Tonight - SEPhillips - definitely like the girl lead more than most I've recently read. Pretty good!