if you only knew

we've hired a new lady. I guess she must be around 60?
....I usually like older gals (cause their give a damn about what other people think is pretty far gone by then)...but I'm just not liking her. My "fake" radar is going off and oy...i don't deal well with fake character at any age. I hope my first impression is wrong. They're setting her desk up right next to mine...

Speaking of being fake, I took my nails off. I just got tired of them.
My hands aren't pretty anymore...*sad face*
Mostly cause I can't stop picking at at my nails! I thought with years of not being able to, I would've broken the habit by now. I'm in my mid-30's! Stop it Brenda. ugh. It is nice to type...or do anything and not have my nails jamming into things though.

Moving on... I read  "If You Only Knew" - not my favorite of hers but I still loved it and now KHiggins is officially my favorite author. I love her stories...she has an amazing way of getting the reader character involved (even with all the super insecure things her girls do. I still love them)

I also read a Cathrine Bybee one...Married by Wednesday or somesuch...not bad. Not amazing....that's all I got. 

AND (along the girl theme).....I'm a little Ashley Monroe obsessed right now
She sounds old school/early 90's gal country. i'm a fan.

...she also said that people have gotten lazy in song writing -  just watching what little I watched of the VMA's last night makes that so true. 

And I really don't get how wearing a leotard and doing open legged squats while singing is sexy (or unique). It's just not. Where's the story?  

...LOVING this song

Wheels are gonna rust If they don’t turn enough,
And so the story goes
Yeah, I’ve been one of those worn and faded by the rain
Days are gonna fly
Draw lines around your eyes
It’ll make you bitter, it’ll make you wise
it’s coming either way

Lost and found, I’m better dancing when I don’t look down
Hard times roll up but they don’t hang around
I feel like I’m on to something good
I’m better moving on than going back
I’ll ride this train till it runs out of track
I feel like I’m on to something, something, something

I can’t tell you how or where I’m heading now
But, the winding of the road is steadying my soul
Feels like I’m coming home
Oh yeah
It’s in the wind that’s blowing, it’s in the red wine
Life’s got it’s way of showing when it’s the right time

Lost and found, I’m better dancing when I don’t look down
Hard times roll up but they don’t hang around
I feel like I’m on to something good
I’m better moving on than going back
I’ll ride this train till it runs out of track
I feel like I’m on to something, something, something

Oooh something, something
Oooh something, something

Lost and found, I’m better dancing when I don’t look down
Hard times roll up but they don’t hang around
I feel like I’m on to something good
I’m better moving on than going back
Yeah, I’ll ride this train till it runs out of track
I feel like I’m on to something, something, something

Oh I feel like I’m on
Oooh something, something
Feel like i’m onto something
Oooh something, something

why bother with marriage?

This whole Ashley Madison thing is surprising me...

I'd never even heard of the site....but the fact that so many people had registered?!!!
I'm guessing - at most - a quarter of them are women? - which even that is doubtful

I've never understood casual sex - it's not my thing
BUT if it's really ok for gals out there then I'm not one to judge. (Well I kinda am one to judge...in this case I'm not though.)

But... I mean seriously gals...as Amy Schumer says (in her ever so polished way) "I can catch a dick whenever I want". This doesn't only apply to her.
We all know, this applies to women in general.
There are plenty of men interested in sex-only relationships out there, you don't need to register to meet someone else's husband.
You certainly don't need to be married yourself...why bother...the wedding alone is freaking ridiculously expensive.

Then there's the marriage part - I mean I love Jamie, he's my best friend (and really, that means more than the love part sometimes.)
But he gets in these pissy roller coaster moods which escalate my pissy moods. Or there are situations where I can't just think about myself and what I want to do -  I have to think about him and adjust to him...it's not always fine. I really REALLY do know how easy it is to turn a relationship wrong.

The thing is... at its base, I want him to be happy and he wants me to be happy.
We talk.
More....we made vows. Call it old fashioned but that means something. And not only marriage vows. I've outright told him that he needed to swear to me that if he ever once thought about cheating that he'd talk to me before he burns that bridge.
And it would be burning a bridge...there's no going back from that for me.

Bottom line - It's very simple 
Don't get married (or even be in a committed relationship) if you're not sure you want to be there AND you're not sure he/she wants to be there with you.

Why waste time?!!!
Why don't people get that?

left the city far behind

We celebrated a friends birthday at a lakehouse near Turner Falls up in Oklahoma this weekend.

Naturally we stopped by Winstar on the way up - we can't just pass by the world's largest casino. Of course we lost our ass. Wheel of no fortune. Boo

Turner Falls was over run with people,
i say its more worth it to battle SB-35 traffic to the hill country to float the river than to do this.
Or gone to OKcity, had a steak at The Ranch and see a band play at the Wormy Dog, that's a fun time. Oh well...now we know. I still like OK.

Also read Love Come to Me by Lisa Kleypas, it was just a little scattered. But I saw that it's one of her first novels and then it makes sense. For being a first novel it's pretty good.

AND so I'm seeing all the "1st day of school" pics on my FB. So cute!! but -
I'm putting in a word for the teachers and school nurses
...good luck, stay strong. 
"You are the managers of the world's greatest resource"
Don't let any parents bring you down.

.....I'm goin through band withdrawals. It's been a while. Maybe we'll see Max at Hanks this weekend.