handy husbands & sudden endings

oh the joys of home ownership - first the air conditioner, now our kitchen sink faucet broke.
I'll tell you what though...it sure is nice having a handyman husband!!
Who needs to read romance novels when ya got a handy dandy husband!!!! YAY! (psyche... I'll still read romance novels cause they make me happy too)

I finished reading The Ascenders. Man...it had so much potential to be an awesome book. It was right up my alley...life after death, parallel universe, portals etc. It just lost all it's awesomeness as it went for me.

And continuing on the life/death path ...I saw it's suicide prevention week.
I'm pretty sure I'm a little "off the wall " when this subject comes up.

I can't say I never thought about it for myself (who hasn't though...right?...or maybe not. Who knows.), but in my case it was fleeting - I'm just too curious and find joy in too many things.

I don't think you can stop someone from doing something that extreme if they're really in that place.
But!.... maybe they're not there yet?! so yep I'm totally for stopping suicide.

Why? Not cause I feel sorry for them but because it's such an abrupt ending to what could be an interesting story. (Maybe not always a happy one but interesting none-the-less....)

Like the end of this Brandon Jenkins song/story....did he follow through? I'd like to think he didn't pull the trigger and maybe there was something super interesting that happened in his life that made it worth finding out how his story turned out? (I don't know what...I'm a reader, not a writer!)

or...if it's a terminal illness I would hope he would consider moving to Oregon, Washington or Vermont (maybe California here soon too *crossing fingers*) to have the option to die peacefully instead...

Lord please forgive me for what I’m about to do
I’m runnin’ on empty, my options are few
You know that I did the best the best that I can
But I’ve done hit rock bottom my time is at hand

yeah, cause I lost my job my bills are getting bigger
Got a cryin’ baby ‘bout to lose my mind
Hundred dollar habit ain’t got a penny
My woman ran off with a friend of mine
I can’t keep a job I’m too fucked up
DHS about to take my kids
Tryin’ to get well I keep getting sicker
Got me Sittin’ in the parking lot my finger on the trigger

Sittin’ in the parking lot my finger on the trigger

You know that I never meant to hurt anyone
And I’ll face the consequences for all the things I’ve done
And Lord sometimes I wonder if you’re even there
Cause my burden is backbreaking, it’s more than I can bear

Cause I lost my job my bills are getting bigger
Got a cryin’ baby ‘bout to lose my mind
Hundred dollar habit ain’t got a penny
My woman ran off with a friend of mine
I can’t keep a job I’m too fucked up
DHS about to take my kids
Tryin’ to get well I keep getting sicker
Got me Sittin’ in the parking lot my finger on the trigger

Sittin’ in the parking lot my finger on the trigger
Sittin’ in the parking lot my finger on the trigger

Cause I lost my job my bills are getting bigger
Cryin’ baby ‘bout to lose my mind
Hundred dollar habit ain’t got a penny
My woman ran off with a friend of mine
I can’t keep a job I’m too fucked up
DHS about to take my kids
Tryin’ to get well I keep getting sicker
Got me Sittin’ in the parking lot my finger on the trigger

Got me Sittin’ in the parking lot my finger on the trigger
Sittin’ in the parking lot my finger on the trigger
Sittin’ in the parking lot my finger on the trigger

sweet Memphis Belle!

Memphis was fun! No it's not very pretty but the food is wonderful - that moves it way up in my book.
PLUS the people were very friendly.
I forget that about the South...Dallas has just really lost it's Southern-ness with the influx of people moving here.
There's hardly even any pretending to be nice anymore...ugh.

And so...back to Memphis....not sure why people are so obsessed with the ducks at the Peabody hotel?
Rendevous too was just kind of "eh". But Paynes BBQ (yummm!) , Gus's fried chicken, Bryant's breakfast and Restaurant Iris were all really good. And worth the wait. We sat at Blues Hall Juke Joint on Beale Street too for a bit - I think for sure we'd do that again if we ever go back! Fun.

I say the best way to see Memphis is sit at a bar somewhere and talk to people (that are highly likely to be cool talking with you)...I love those kindsa towns.

Read Joanna Schupe - mostly good, I'll read more.
Reading the second of  Laura Lee Guhrke's American Heiress series. It's kinda slow....

so I'm also reading a YA that my sister has told me is very popular right now called The Ascenders. Yet another YA being made into a movie (or tv show?).
I'm about half way through and though it's a good story concept there are dumb one-liners in there that throw me off. It's starting to drag a little in the middle AND there are contradictions too. Enough for even me to notice.

Back to household chores. And work tomorrow...

she's got the whole wide world

I submitted my pictures and story to Death with Dignityto hopefully help pass the law.
I hear California's close....

I cried seeing those pictures of my grandparents again....
this one of me and my Ita on my wedding day especially...

And so I read Eleanor and Park...a YA first love story.

Loved that it was set in the 80's...I think it did catch the teenage angst. It's interesting how reading books about teenagers does recall how I felt back then -miserable and know it all and unknowing - the ending was a let down but eh...overall not a bad book.

I also tried reading Robyn Carr. I think I've tried to read her several times now and it just isn't catching. I got bored. Next...

A FB friend that owns a B&B in Anguilla (born in Canada, raised in Spain) posted this on her FB.

LOVE THIS - so true...and the more I travel the more true it becomes. I wish more people tried these things.

AND today is my Friday!!! We're doing a Dallas adventure down to Deep Ellum tonight. 

Then we Dallas are going to Tennessee for a day trip.

We leave for Memphis tomorrow. Lets see what "The Volunteer State"'s got!