beach please!

Shit work week - date dinner tonight with the husband.
Then leavin on a girls trip to Destin tomorrow. Woo!
I'm locked and loaded with 4 books.
Otherwise gonna find me some lime-a-ritas and then....
ME til Tuesday.

friends/of friends, the buckle in my eye and a reading frenzy....

total reading frenzy this weekend,
except Sunday - we had people over.
Like 10 people? - that's a good amount - friends/friends of friends. It was nice and fun and all...especially when everything's not solely on us to feed everyone.
I think Jamie needed the socialization more than I thought...

I just get a little tired having to clean/pick up after people. I thought we were kinda past the age where people just leave their shit everywhere? Or gals?...I mean -  could we go a little old school and help a gal out with the dishes maybe?

Here's an example of a cultural difference....you can always tell when people weren't raised around a big family. I go in to someone's house knowing that you bring something, (at the very least your beverage of choice) and you (especially the women) always help the hosts consolidate/clean at strategic times for when the next round of hunger happens. ...but oh well...whatever. Really I'm just bitching...it's not that bigga deal - and certainly less expensive than going out, that's for sure. 

Just had my eye check up for my scleral buckle  - he says I'm good. May seems like forever ago - or maybe I just want to forget that it happened. Still getting used to it though....I can feel it stretch when I move my eyes to the right. Def notice floaters/flashes more, especially when my eyes are tired.  He wants to see me back in a year - we'll see how things'llve changed.

Finished
Elisa Braden's -new Viola's story  - Good story. jerkface moment! you don't ever go see your old girlfriend!ugh. 
Carrie Pilby - not sure how this got on in my queue?...didn't have high expectations but was pleasantly and thoroughly entertained! More than a few introvert/relate-able scenarios. I saw that it's going to be a movie. I hope they don't dumb it down...
1 and 3 of Christi Caldwell's scandalous - good getaway as always. ugh the blind-ness
Re-read - Sweet Ruin - it's funny how i seem to like Kresley Cole's books more the more I read them....

funerals / choosing not to go

the funeral is today. I'm choosing not to go.
and I'm getting negative body language when people ask about it...

It's almost like they think I'm unfeeling?
I'm not unfeeling, and I've put thought into this...
it just comes down to this - I imagine he (the deceased) is looking down at all the people that came for his funeral,

(Narrow down to the row I'm in.)
He thinks,  "ah yes here's Michael I remember when..." 
then "oh wow Ellen showed up...ugh she pissed me off that one time...".

I'm next and he pauses and thinks "who's that?"

....remember those two times I shook your hand in introduction? Yes, that is the extent of our association.

Next factor is - it's not so much about him, it's about his wife (my co-worker).
I'm more inclined to go in support of her...
but honestly - from my own past experiences, and what I know about her - she's in a whirlwind of people around her, adding myself as another person she has to take time to acknowledge seems more of a burden than anything.

if I'm really being honest - my inclination to go (is yes partly to show support for her) but also, it's partly to see how the Jewish faith differs in their funerals...
of anything, that feels the most wrong - to use my curiosity as a reason to attend a funeral.

I think I might see death and dying differently from a lot of people? What's really odd is how most people don't feel comfortable even talking about it. ... a fact of life.

I don't pity people who are dying. I pity them if it seemed like they don't live while alive.
In this case, it seems like he didn't at all  have that problem.

oy - I'm using a lot of "I's" and "me's" and so I acknowledge that there's a possibility that I might be wrong, Jamie already gave me the "it's the right thing to do" lecture but, for the above reasoning, it doesn't feel wrong to not go and I'm ok with it.

Laying low this weekend - maybe people over sunday...

Finished MacLean's Scot in the Dark - gotta say...didn't hate it, but it's one of my least favorite of hers. Overdone on self-worth inner dialogue imo, it took away from the story.