maybe not going Rogue...booo

got a Rogue costume  - gloves and red hair w/ white strip and everything - but I'm just kinda eh....
my favorite holiday and i'm not feelin' the halloween spirit.

Thinking I might hold off on wearing rogue til next year.
I'm so boring.
..i hate boring.

maybe it's just the weather.
Friends invited us to dinner and my book sounds more interesting to me right now.
Bout halfway through reading The Shadows - oy there's like 8 story lines - and the mains of this one are def not my favorite of hers.

It's not getting on my nerves just yet,  but seriously though,
 if ever there was an author to keep me just barely on the good side of the cusp to boredom it's J.R. Ward. She stretches a story like I've never seen before.

And so if it's not still raining we might head to the horse track to bet on the breeders cup tomorrow. Then maybe a birthday halloween party and maybe i'll be in a better mood..but as i said...eh. yawn. i suck.

"dressing up" and going dark

pretty sad that i'm wearing a dress and boots today and everyone is wondering why i'm "dressed up".
we're re-financing the house "rate is ideal" and "financially smart and retirement savings" or somesuch whatever Jamie said. blahblahblah 
(The glory of being married to a degree in finance...)


i decided to make an effort for signing a stack of papers. You're welcome world!

again... adult-ing ugh

Grimm's End read stilted to me.
I think I'm going to have to go back and re-read this one....really maybe I should go back and re-read the series AND the "other" story (tale?) addressed in this book..... Not wholly disappointed, I'm just floundering a little here. The whole forgivness of self thing..hmmm.

I've got jrward's the Shadow's up next...yet another dark one I'm sure. 

don't break yourself on a heart of stone

here I go being judge-y (again) 
my cousin got engaged and theirs is not coming off as a great pairing. 

I honestly hope I'm wrong - i've no idea what they're like behind closed doors -  but yeah
... any good marriage I've seen has friendship as a big part of its base.
I'm not seeing it here.

Shit I barely saw much of anything - no secret looks, no joking, not even anybody pissed off.
Lord knows everyone can tell when I'm pissed at Jamie - I'm not good at hiding it anymore.

big bear of lovin' for his family and all I saw was tolerance for his "almost" spouse - it makes me kinda sad...

even more sad that I think a little of that closed-offness on his side has to do with him growing up with his dad's misogyny - then add being a veteran on top of being a police officer and it's pretty much a given that there'll be a lot of hurdles to overcome in establishing a meaningful relationship.

I honestly think any spouse that can handle being married to a veteran (especially one that fought in a war) and/or married to someone in law enforcement deserves a huge level of respect.
I couldn't do it...I just couldn't do it...can't make a bridge with two walls of ice.

Again...I'd love them to prove me wrong....he truly deserves to be happy.

just saw that the last of Shiloh Walker's Grimm series came out today. I almost don't want to read it. I've really liked this series and I know she's probably gonna kill (or inflict a lot of pain) on a character that I'm invested in. She writes like Larissa Ione in that way.

It's a Chris Knight kinda day
got the broken promises
got the broken home
dont break yourself on a
heart of stone