A Book Diary of Sorts?

and so...I wasn't going to say anything for a few days to let it settle a bit ....  I'm not one to be emotional anyway...it gets no one anywhere.

really though - quite frankly I'd like to mark this down for myself ('cause I'm almost even more surprised at the way I'm feeling right now than the outcome of this presidential election...if that makes any sense? Especially since I was no rah rah Hillary fan either...)

I'm nervous,
a little sick to my stomach,
my inner consciousness/instinct is red flagging,
and though I never once - in my life - recall having felt aggressed upon .... I do now being a woman with dark hair and dark eyes.

 .....how's that for emotional?

Please god let it be me being over emotional.
I ask to be proven wrong. I want to be proven wrong.

and so like i said in my "farewell 'til saner times" fb post on monday:
I'm no Nasty girl
Nor am I a Deplorable girl
I aim to be a "obstinate, headstrong girl" (of the Jane Austen variety)...

but alas... I was younger then, even my whimsy feels banked and unamusing... I'm gonna try for a better day tomorrow.